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In August they go walking down the Skunk
Train tracks to their favorite swimming hole on the
river. Redwoods shield them from the sun for the first
half mile. Rays from that nearest star stream through
chinks in the dense green canopy, shafts of light choked
with dust and pollen, millions of small deaths and
possible births suspended in a golden shimmer sticky as
dessert wine. The ground is spongy, carpeted with a
hundred years' worth of fine needles sloughed by the
tallest of all living things, their ragged crowns wagging
in the hot updrafts like plumes on the helmets of silent
hussars awaiting the order to charge. |
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At a bend in
the tracks they leave the shade behind. Alders with
supple gray trunks mottled a greeny white lean out
towards the river. White parasols of cow parsnip flower
above grasses with their roots sunk in a sunny, swampy
hollow, and cabbage white moths flit among the tangled
canes of blackberries, which form a natural barbed-wire
fence along one side of the railroad embankment. |
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The
blackberries are at their fattest, their juiciest. They
tumble into the hand easily, at the merest touch, like
the blessings that issue from the throats of blind
beggars at the clink of small coins tossed into a
battered felt hat. To live, to survive, the blackberries
must be devoured by passing animals, the sugars fermented
by the furious energy of the sun digested, melted and
transformed, the hard seeds deposited elsewhere along a
trail. |
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But why do
they call it the Skunk Train? she asks, licking sweet
purple from her lips, her hips cocked to one side as her
fingers reach through the thorny vines for another
handful. |
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Coils of curly dark
hair are piled high on her head, loose strands trailing
down the graceful curve of her neck. In this moment she
looks to him for all the world like the ingenue in the
famous fresco unearthed in the ruins of the Palace of
Knossos by Sir Arthur Evans, the woman painted thirty-six
hundred years ago that he dubbed La Petite Parisienne. |
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Because of
the crude diesel the engines burned back in those days, he
tells her, people used to say you could smell the
train coming long before you heard it or saw it. |
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She turns and
holds out her palm. He chooses the most succulent berry,
pops it into his mouth and closes his eyes. The ripe
fruit melts on his tongue, swells like the crescendo of a
perfect, crystalline aria against his palate. Suddenly he
wants to sing. Suddenly he senses how empty the cosmos
would feel without this one woman. |
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But the
cosmos is mostly empty, and getting emptier by the
second, as the galaxies formed from the fiery gases of
the Big Bang expand outwards in their mad dash away from
the beginning of time. Astronomers reckon that a whole
galaxy could pass right through another galaxy without a
single one of its billions of stars bumping into one of
the other's stars, much like the passing crowds of
oblivious strangers at commuter rush hour in New York's
cavernous Penn Station. |
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She's like a hazel
switch in the hands of a dowser. When he takes her in his
arms, he knows where there's water and light, where
there's life. He also has a rough idea of the odds
against this happening. Loving is as utterly improbable
as the tangy black fruit which is an outcome of the
billion degree Fahrenheit, pre-elemental, pre-atomic
quark soup bubbling in uncreated, quirky space a
nanosecond after the cosmos explodes into being. If a
modern factory that could turn out zeroes at a rate of a
zillion a second were built, there would still never be
enough zeroes to accurately compute the odds. |
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And yet,
crazy things like blackberries and love do, in fact,
happen, right here on this humble speck of home floating
in the nearly vacant, nearly frozen reaches of an
ever-expanding hollow of space and time. |
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Perhaps the
two of them, and all other stuff, are the result of an
experiment. Those who study the tiniest and largest parts
of the cosmos have calculated that a technology only
slightly more advanced than ours could artificially
create a black hole, one of those matter-sucking, warped
singularities our radio telescopes spy in the far reaches
of the universe. All it would take is the wizardry to
crush a grapefruit down to a density of about 1075 grams
per cubic centimeter. The black hole would mark the
creation of a new universe, perhaps a place with more
than the four dimensions normally encountered on this
crusty ball of molten lava circling an insignificant
yellow dwarf of a star. |
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In any event, every
scrap of matter we see on moonless nights in countless
galaxies aswarm with countless suns might've been an
alchemist's mistake, a science project flop in the
basement of a high school Einstein in another universe
toying with the packed atoms of an artificial, accidental
black hole. |
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Before he can
tell her any of this, their lips meet in a kiss. A warm,
moist blackberry passes between her teeth into his mouth.
His skin feels new, as if he were a eucalyptus shedding
bark in its quest of more sky. The loser's long-shot odds
of physics are forgotten. The world is again as unlikely
and as simple as a blackberry, and they continue down the
tracks and over the trestle bridge to the spot where the
stones of the river give way to white sand and the water
deepens. |
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A belted
kingfisher skims along the surface of the river, gone
ripply green with the reflection of summer foliage. The
bird alights for a moment on the bleached twigs of a
deadfall oak trapped against a boulder. At the sound of
the current tugging at their legs, adding the faint
gurgle from these newcomers to the water's ongoing song,
the kingfisher flies downstream, towards the sea. The
river embraces their bodies when they enter, smoothes
their hair flat against their skulls. When they leave,
part of the river leaves with them, in the form of silver
droplets sparkling in the sun. |
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And there,
near where the water deepens and tosses fine granules
onto the bank, somehow the doleful laws of physics are
defeated. Le petit mort, the trees might call the
act the bipeds perform to achieve this victory, if trees
spoke French, if they spoke at all. The act is a
chrysalis for invisible butterflies, a crucible in which
mesmerized plus and minus atoms blend to form a new
molecule. The act is a gamble, an adamant refusal to be
skunked by a cosmos which the scientists claim holds all
the cards and makes up the rules as it goes along. |
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Sunlight bouncing off the mauve coverlet under the
naked bodies paints them both the color of blackberry
juice. The man and the woman seem to be dying into
something else. And long after they ante up everything
they are in their desperate gamble, their very bones are
still ringing like cymbals crafted from the finest brass,
and rings of jade light ripple from each small, unknown
country their fingertips discover. |
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